Dear you,

I never thought you could still affect me. I thought I’ve really forgotten everything about you. But the thought of you makes my heart aches again. Why is this happening?

10 months ago, I came to this place. I knew seeing you was inevitable. I knew I didn’t want time see your face. I knew I didn’t even want to hear your name, or talk to anyone that’s associated with you. I thought that was hatred. Just maybe.

Do you know how much I changed in these few years? Learning to be independent, learning to live by myself, without you. Making myself busy so that I wouldn’t have time for nonsensical thoughts. Well, thank you. Because of your absence, I became a strong girl. I achieved so much more than I thought I could. I’ve found my passion, I’ve been doing things I like. Come to think of it, you leaving isn’t something bad. I wouldn’t have gained so much if I were still living in that little hole with only you around.

Do you know there were times when I hope I could accidentally bump into you so that I can be close to you once more? I forgot how that felt like. I’ve became a stranger in your life, and you won’t allow me to intrude. How I wished I had the courage to say hi. How I wished you had said hi.

10Months had past and you’re leaving again. I think it’s a good thing cause maybe I won’t think about you if you’re some where distant from me. Bye for now, and thank you for not acknowledging me in your life. That’s what I want, actually.

Time time get on with life. One day I will get over you. Some day.

No. I don’t want to be friends with you.

Sincerely, me.